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Sunday, 19 December 2010

2 more sleeps!

2 more sleeps till my mommy gets home...
I miss her so much even now when she is only gone for a week for holiday...What am I gonna do when she moves to Australia permanently?

On a random note, this is the type of guy I hope I will find one day...if I haven't already..
If I wake up in the middle of the night from a bad dream, I hope I'll turn and see you sleeping peacefully beside me..and I will hug you and smile...and I hope my thoughts would be "I'm glad we're in this together"..

Sunday, 12 December 2010

Little update.

I didn't mention in my blog that I went to Bali last month to visit the children who I spent 3 months with a few months ago. Its really confusing for some of my friends who I'm not in constant contact with, and they just can't figure out where am I in the world at the moment. For your info, if you were wondering, I'm back in Malaysia and working as a mechanical engineer in a Mechanical & Electrical consultant company in Taman Mayang, Petaling Jaya.

So anyway, I was back in Bali for a month, staying at the children's home the whole time.
All I can say is that it was amazing to see the children again..and I feel so much a part of them and they are so much a part of me that I didn't feel like a guest there anymore. And it was so surprising that I could flow right back into speaking Indonesian..and it felt like I never left.

We had a walk through the rice fields one day, and another day, a group of us went into the city to watch Harry Potter! I have a really good friend there who I can talk to about anything. He is the sweetest and nicest boy I have ever met! We actually talked about watching Harry Potter coming out in November before I left Bali in September, and we were saying we could watch it at the same time, me in Malaysia and him in Bali. Who knew that I would actually be back there the exact week that it was released..=)

It was also especially nice because my 'godmother' decided to book tickets to Bali to meet me there when I told her about my decision to go for a week. Even though she was going to be back there in 2 weeks. And she is actually there right now! I'm a little jealous that I can't be there again so soon...but I'm really happy because she gives me little reports about how the children are, and what they are doing, and where they are going for outings..

So that was my little visit to Bali, now back to the present.

I've been really busy at work. And it doesn't stop. I always try to clear my work as soon as possible, and sometimes when I'm so close to finishing, my lead engineer hands me another few piles of documents to work on! Hahaha. The average time I leave the office now is around 8.30pm, and there was one day when I left at 9.30pm. Seeing the sun still up when I leave the office is a very rare occurance now.

But I truly enjoy my job. So far I work well with my colleagues, and even when I have tonnes of work, I don't mind! And I realise it is really a blessing to be able to find such a job, and I am thankful for it.

I went for blood donation this morning in Tropicana City Mall. They poked the needle into my left arm, but somehow, the vein closed and my blood just refused to flow out anymore. So they had to poke my right arm. And now I have 2 sore arms. I always have complications when I donate blood, or when they are trying to get blood from me for blood tests. The last time I donated blood, my arm had a HUGE bruise which stayed for about a week. And considering how sore my arm feels right now, I'm expecting a bruise to appear by tomorrow morning. :(

Well, I'm off to bed..but before that, just to share with you..
I've found that it is good to start and end your day with laughter. Especially if you had too little sleep the night before, starting the day by reading or watching something funny will lighten your mood and give you a great start to your day. And no matter how tired or how bad a day you had, ending your day with laughter will give you an outlet for the pressure built up in you so that you can have a good night's sleep. So what I do each morning is to watch something funny/sweet/happy on Youtube while having breakfast before going to work. And to listen to some songs at night before sleeping. Any emo/sad/angry songs are filtered out.

So I wish all of you a pleasant start to tomorrow, a lovely simple day, and a happy close to the day.

Sunday, 5 December 2010

Your grace

For Your grace in my life amazes me...and I cannot help but thank You and praise You every waking moment...

Saturday, 4 December 2010

I'm going down this path...

If after considering all the options, you realised that you don't have a choice,

that this is the only one which would make you happy..

If after waiting for some signs to show you if it is indeed the only one, the road suddenly, against all odds, opens up for you to walk down that path..

Would you do it?

If you were given a clear chance to go after the one thing which you are convinced holds the key to your life happiness...

Please, don't hesitate.

If you are so certain that that something/some place/someone is the guarantee to your happiness, what choice do you have but to risk it all and chase it?

Saturday, 13 November 2010

You would be so proud of me..

You would be so proud of me if you could see me now..
I'm now the person you always hoped I would be.
It's really ironic that it's only now that I learned how to be this better person.
But maybe that's how it is. I probably would never have learned to be this person if I continued to be with you.

You really would be proud of me...

Saturday, 6 November 2010

And I'm in love and I'm terrified...

I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life....

The paradox of pursuing happiness..

I posted this on Facebook and it seems that many people agree with this phrase that I read in a book.

"The three components of happiness are :

something to do, someone to love,

and something to look forward to."

As we all can see for ourselves, this world is filled with many(a bit too many) people who are very unhappy with their lives. But why? The world seems to be getting richer and richer, from footballers who earn millions of pounds a week to bank CEOs who get 80% increments + millions as their annual bonus. The world has never seen so much money. So, if what Malcolm Forbes says is true, that "Anyone who thinks that money can't buy happiness is shopping in the wrong places", then many of us should actually be laughing all day long.

The sad thing about this is that what we witness couldn't be more different to what theory dictates.

The writer defines "something to do" as work that we are passionate about. Many people get so bored with their jobs because it was never their passion to begin with.

So if you manage to find something to do which you absolutely enjoy,
if you have love all around you - parents, siblings, that special someone, or your children,
and if you have something look forward to - a nice vacation to enjoy the fruit of your labor, for example..
Then I believe that you can't say that you are unhappy.

I would love to be able to tell all the unhappy people...
Please don't sacrifice your relationships and time with your loved ones for work.
Never get into that cycle where you lose track of whether you work to live or live to work.

I truly wish that someone can learn something from this, just like how I did. Wishing all of you happiness and love in your lives...=)

p/s: I always put in the title after I've finished writing a blog post..and I just typed "The pursuit of happiness" and realised what a paradox it is....Will we ever be able to stop pursuing and just let happiness come?