The only exception

Sorry for not updating for so long =) 

Been quite busy for the past few weeks preparing to leave..(more about this another time)

Short update today: 

1) A chat with a friend of mine which made my day - you know you're close friends when you have nicknames

2) 'Discovered' some really nice songs on the radio while driving all the way to Putrajaya alone. I haven't been listening to the radio for such a long time - always a CD playing in the car

3) One of the songs I heard was The Only Exception by Paramore. 

The words to the song really hits a sensitive spot. 

And unfortunately I can connect with the whole song except the chorus. 

Everything else is exactly how I've felt for a long time, and am still feeling.
I am still afraid of the future, and a part of me is convinced that I will never have the family I dream of. 

A really really good friend of mine was listening to my worries just a few days ago. And the words he said to me, though simple, were so touching that I couldn't stop my tears. Thank you. You really gave me hope. I will always remember those words you told me. 

Here are the lyrics to the song. 

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

Lyrics from www.directlyrics.com

I think I am on my way to believing. I'm trying to...