Monday, 21 December 2009


Its Christmas this Friday, can hardly believe how quickly it came..

So many things I expect of myself, so many ways to improve, to learn... I really feel like there isn't enough time in a day to do it all.

Year 2010 is dawning upon us soon enough, there're gonna be so many people making New Year resolutions, and we all know that a HIGH percentage of these resolutions will NOT fulfilled by the end of the year. So somewhere along the way, I gave up making New Year resolutions, and decided to just make resolutions. No time limit, no due date. One thing about new year resolutions is that when the year ends, you don't feel like fulfilling it anymore, there's no urge anymore, because its 'past the due date'. And you wouldn't want to make the SAME new year resolution again, because a) that just shows you didn't have enough of a backbone to fulfill it by the end of the last year, and b) that's just silly. lol.

So now, I write lists. I have all sorts of lists. I have a list of things I want to do, languages I want to learn, places I want to go to, food I want to learn how to cook. And as I said, no time limit. But I tell myself to keep moving down the list, not to give up, and to try to do them as soon as possible, when I get my chance to do those things. And this has really worked for me. I've done so many things this year, some of which I never expected to be able to do, because of these lists I made.

To all who plan to make some changes in your lives, all the best to you. But don't let the NEW YEAR determine when you should start, or the end of the year to determine when to stop. Change and self-improvement should be a continuous process, and the only one who should decide your time limit is yourself.

=) A Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all of you.


Sunday, 20 December 2009


I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring
Need something that i can confess

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that'll light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away


Sunday, 13 December 2009

Growing up

It's been almost 2 months since I last blogged. And almost 2 months since my aunt's passing. The honest truth is that I am still grieving..Once in awhile it hits me that she's really gone, and I still struggle at times to convince myself that she IS gone. That I can't just drive over to her place and talk to her anymore. Tonight I went over to her house to visit my other aunt and my uncle, and no matter how well I can cover up the sadness when I'm around others, I can never get over the emptiness I feel when I go over there. The whole place reminds me of her. The hall, the chairs, the kitchen, her room, even the toilet! I can't share this sadness with anyone but my small aunt. We depend on each other for comfort, and pull each other up with our conversations.

Life has been going on quite smoothly, I went to Malacca for a weekend a few weeks back - been hoping for this trip since I watched the Little Nyonya drama when I was back in UK..haha. Got my new car last Saturday =) Its a Midnight Blue it.

Somehow I feel like I have grown so much during the past few months, since I've been back in Malaysia. Maybe its work, probably is. I've experienced some new things, met new people, and am starting to see the world in a different light. It sounds so simple, the last sentence I just typed. But there is so much to it. I was once told that as you grow older, the black's and white's of life slowly blend together and you'll see the world as gray. It's not that I didn't believe what the person told me, but I was just waiting till the day I started seeing the black's and white's blend together. And now I have. Not everything is as simple and uncomplicated as I first saw it. In fact NOTHING is that simple. One of the biggest lessons I have learnt recently is not to take 1st impressions too seriously.
Not to focus too much on the surface, dig deeper, and take your time making your choice as to what you should think about someone, something, or a situation.