Saturday, 30 October 2010

Happy birthday daddy...

Some pictures from our family celebration last Sunday. 
It's his birthday today =)

Mom and I

Enjoying my strawberry ice cream

Our birthday cake!!

Daddy and I cutting the cake

From left: Fav aunty, mom, little brother Ryan, and daddy

Love you daddy..



Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Thursday, 28 October 2010

Quick Update!

It was my 22nd birthday on Monday, and I really want to put up some pictures of my family having dinner together, and some of my friends celebrating with me..but I've been really busy this week and so it'll have to be some time during the weekend.

Part of why I was busy was because I had to attend a training course on Monday and Tuesday. And there was an exam on Tuesday which I HAD to pass, otherwise I would need to repeat the 2-day training and examination. So on Monday night, though it was my birthday, I had to study!! =( My friends actually had a surprise birthday dinner for me and I had NO idea...I totally didn't expect it because I was so focused on studying for the exam. It was quite saddening. Hehe but the exam turned out much better than a lot of us expected. Many of those who wen for the training with me had already sat for the exam once or twice before, and I was worried I'd have to go through the same thing. But they too mentioned that the exam this time was simpler than the previous ones, so thank God for that =) We'll know the results in about 2 weeks' time.

I'm still really enjoying my job so far. I have so many things to learn, so many things to catch up on! Colleagues are throwing stuff on my 'in-tray' to CHECK, when I have absolutely no idea what that thing even is! Lol ! So this is my challenge for the next few weeks : to study and ask and catch up on everything as soon as possible.

Its Thursday night, which means its Friday tomorrow, which means that its the weekend really soon!! Yay! I don't mind going to work really.....its just really nice to sleep in for at least a day in one week. =) Goodnight and take care everyone!

Thursday, 21 October 2010

Love you baby..

I'm helping out with filing in the office at the moment, and yesterday as I was balancing some of the really heavy files on my hip, I was suddenly reminded of sweet little Deborah and how I always carried her like that.

 Here she is, taking her time tasting each alphabet..

And looking pretty and sweet in her little blue dress

Tuesday, 19 October 2010


Tuesday night. Tuesday is usually the hardest day for me when I was working, because the weekend feeling has faded away and you're not even mid-week yet. But today has been wonderful.

I'm so excited about my new job!! I've been helping one of my colleagues with documentation for ISO since last week, so I haven't had the chance to learn much about my actual job. But today I had a little briefing session and its amazing how excited I can get about pumps and water and water tanks and pressure! I'm so glad I decided to take the step of changing from design to consultancy. I feel its the right move for me.

Time to sleep :)

Sunday, 17 October 2010

It's a mad world...

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

Saturday, 16 October 2010

OK Go - This Too Shall Pass

You know you can't keep letting it get you down
And you can't keep dragging that dead weight around.
If there ain't all that much to lug around,
Better run like hell when you hit the ground

Enjoyable Saturday..

Today is such a wonderful day. I went to Taman Pertanian Bukit Cahaya with a bunch of really nice friends to cycle around. The place was a hugeee recreational park. I was expecting the ride to be really relaxing, but it was challenging! It was uphill right from the start, and it was so funny when all of us tried to cycle up the hills but ended up just getting down and pushing our bikes. But the downhills were so fun...Wheee!!! Hope my friends will upload our pictures soon on Facebook.

Mom is finally home~ the end of my 2-week loneliness.

And my best friend is finally home too from Japan after a whole month!!! Happy happy happy...=)

I saw this video on someone else's blog, and I just love it!! The man has such a cute laugh and I can just imagine he must be a very kind and friendly person!

short post before goodnight...

Would love to have put some really fun and sweet videos up here, but I'm so exhausted I can't do anything much at the moment.

First day of work went quite well if I'm being positive, quite bad if I'm thinking negatively. =)
I'll get used to it I'm sure, and the environment in the office is really nice. I can see myself working there very happily.

Goodnight all!

Thursday, 14 October 2010

To be strong and of good courage

I'm starting a new job tomorrow, and I'm really excited about it! My title will be Mechanical Engineer at a Mechanical & Electrical consultancy firm. I like the sound of that :) And I'm quite sure I will enjoy my job.

I'm going to really miss this past one and a half months where I've pretty much stayed home and relaxed, doing lots of reading and watching movies on my computer. 

I've recently started reading the book of Joshua. And at this moment in time, I really feel strengthened by the words in this book. Something which happened so many years ago can still be a source of guidance for me in my life. And right now, I need continue to "Be strong and of good courage". 

Got to get ready to go out now. My favourite aunt needs to go to Shah Alam and I said I'll fetch her there.
On a sadder note, it's almost a year since my older aunt passed away(her sister), 18th of October. It's going to be very hard for this aunt to stay strong in the next few days... 

Have a blessed day everyone. Here's a song from one of my favourite artists of all time, Jay Chou. Though I don't speak Chinese very well, he was actually the person who made me love Chinese songs and learn Chinese from there.

Monday, 11 October 2010

Beauty in everything..

I love photography...there is so much beauty in the world that you could capture with a camera. 
There's a movie called One Hour Photo, and right at the beginning, the main character played by Robin Williams says this..

Most people don't take snapshots of the little things. The used Band-Aid, the guy at the gas station, the wasp on the Jell-O. But these are the things that make up the true picture of our lives. People don't take pictures of these things. 

The shutter is clicked. The flash goes off and they've stopped time, as if just for the blink of an eye.  

And if these pictures have anything important to say to future generations, it's this: I was here. I existed. I was young, I was happy, and someone cared enough about me in this world to take my picture. 

Photo by Jill Willcott


Long day...

This morning I woke up at 6.30am to go jogging. I'm really trying to get myself into a routine so that I can keep to it even when I start working.

Then I went to Sunway Pyramid for lunch with some new friends. Its really nice to meet new people, and I've been meeting so many new people recently that my mind is taking some time remembering all their names!

Now its dinner time, and I don't know what I want to eat. Its been a week since mom went off on holiday to East Europe, and 5 more days before she comes home. I try to busy myself each day but today has been a long and lonely day...and I still don't know what I should do about dinner.

Friday, 8 October 2010

A life worth living..

Today I went to Chow Kit, the well-known red light district of Kuala Lumpur, with a few new friends from Community Baptist Church.
We gathered together and had a time of prayer before going out into the streets to speak with people.

These friends of mine go to Chow Kit for ministry every week on Thursdays, so they knew a few 'regulars' around the area. Many of them are drug addicts, or used to be. There were also many women who sold their bodies for money.

We met a man sitting on the sidewalk who was from Kuching, Sarawak. He is a Muslim, but he hasn't been going to any mosques for a long long time. He is homeless, but he appears to be well-educated and spoke perfect English. He looks clean and well-dressed.

We start talking to him about Jesus Christ, and I thought he was going to tell us to leave, but instead, he listens very carefully and patiently to what Uncle Gabriel says. He tells us that he has read the Bible before, and he knows about Jesus Christ. Not only that, he has also read about Buddhism. He said that he used to be a devout Muslim, praying 5 times a day. But his life has been filled with difficulty, and at one point he just got fed up and stopped praying. Stopped believing.

But to me, he hasn't truly stopped believing. He agreed that us and everything around us was created by God, it can't be anything else. So what I think is that he stopped praying because what he believed in couldn't give him an answer as to why his life has turned out this way. Which was why he would even pick up a Bible to read, and search Buddhism as well. He is searching for something. He is longing for something. He himself said that he is not asking for riches, he is not asking for a perfect life, he is not even asking for a roof over his head. But what he is searching for is peace. A peace which he has not found as yet.

He told us that he has tried to go to a particular church a few times, but was not allowed to enter because he was a Muslim. I don't know what were the reasons the people from that church decided not to allow him to enter - it might have been they were afraid of breaking the law, or they might have just thought he was a homeless man who wanted money from them. But whatever their reasons were, I don't think they did the right thing. And this is where Uncle Gabriel says "They are not acting like true Christians". Because true Christians can be recognised by their 'kasih sayang'. Their love.

And it hit me, that though I was among a group of people who were generally despised and avoided at all costs, this was where I wanted to be. I loved them. I don't think it would have been possible for me to be able to love these people who were worlds different from us if I didn't have the love of Jesus Christ in my heart. He took the scales off from my eyes and showed me past the physical state of them, past their dirtiness, their poverty, and showed me that they were exactly the same as me - beloved children of God. Though they have wandered off their paths and ended up where they are now, God still loves them as much as the day they were born. And so should we, as people who call ourselves followers of Christ.

The past few months in my life have taught me so many things, but there is one thing that I can be certain of, especially after today. That I see no point whatsoever in a life where I have everything I need and to keep pursuing for more than what I need, without helping anyone else. To me, that is a very meaningless life and a very sad one.

We are all human beings. The Lord has blessed some of us with a lot, and others with much less. Why can't we stop being so selfish and live only on what we truly need? Why waste our efforts on hoarding more and more riches while a fellow human being is sleeping on the street, hungry? Why is there so much pressure on getting that 'perfect' job and sticking at it even if you're unhappy? I find what I did tonight so much more fulfilling than a life like that.

Monday, 4 October 2010

Much Love Monday : Yummy felt cake!

I made this for mom the first week I got back from Bali while waiting for replies from job applications.
I couldn't get a very good picture of it using my phone..but the cream part in this picture is actually bright yellow and it looks really bright and cheerful..

When I was young, I loved drawing pictures and cards for mom.
I'm sure lots of you did that as well when you were young. =)
But unfortunately as we grow up, we kind of forget how much more meaningful these are to our parents rather than expensive gifts.

Mom is moving to Melbourne in a few months' time...I hope she'll place this next to her bed when she's there and think of me every night before she goes to sleep. 

Friday, 1 October 2010

Eat, Pray, Love..

It's the 1st of October, can you imagine? I really can't believe how quickly time is passing by. It seems like the weeks are flying past, even though I'm pretty much just sitting at home everyday, which usually feels like time is dragging on. But I'm enjoying myself. I'm enjoying this time I have to sort out my thoughts after a huge change in my life. And I'm enjoying being on my own.

I watched the movie Eat, Pray, Love today. I've been looking forward to the movie for quite some time, after I read the book. And it didn't disappoint. Of course, like all movies based on novels, a lot of what was written in the book had to be condensed. But I felt that they kept the essence of what the writer was essentially trying to tell us.

I don't know about other people, but everytime I watch a movie or read a novel, I always find myself trying to see a bit of myself in the actress or main character. Sometimes I don't see myself at all, and sometimes its a bit more. But in Eat, Pray, Love ... I felt like they were telling my story.

Many people who read the book were in some ways affected by it. They learned to take a step closer to what they want in life. But I only knew about the book after those events took place in my life. And during some scenes in the movie, I wanted to cry so badly because it was just too similar to what I went through.

I've met a few people recently who have affected me more than they would ever know. And one of the most important things that they taught me, was that sometimes, we have to be selfish. There is a point in our lives where we need to consciously make the decision to stop following what other people tell you that you SHOULD do, and just do what you want to do. And sometimes that involves being very selfish and hurting other people.

After it all, just like Elizabeth Gilbert, I still very often think of the past. But, just like her, it wasn't because I still love him. Its because I still hope that one day..he might be able to forgive me for being so selfish. Though I wouldn't go back even if you gave me a hundred chances to turn back time. I would still take this path each time.

I loved the last few sentences Julia Roberts said towards the ending.