Saturday, 30 July 2011

Tough week.

It's been a pretty tough week. It started off really tough, then it seemed to pick up in the middle of the week, but today was just really really bad. Mostly due to work, and a little bit due to me being paranoid about silly stuff.

But I'm looking forward to the weekend. We're going on a little holiday, which I'm going to be so thankful for :)

Hope your week was better than mine..

p/s: I went to a football match for the first time last night and it was amazing! Malaysia vs Singapore, and though we didn't win, I absolutely loved how everyone was so united. You don't very often get 85,000 people at the same place at one time, all wishing for the same thing. So here's to Malaysia, to Malaysians, and to the love for our country and for one another.

Friday, 22 July 2011

Other than you.

Every step of our lives is a decision we make for ourselves.
Will you take the reins of your life? Will you hold on tight?
When the strong winds blow and force you to let go, will you stand strong and fight for your rights?
Do you conform?

Or will you take each step with a bold heart and trust that whatever decision it is that you make, no one else is to say that you were wrong, or that you were right, other than YOU. 

Thursday, 21 July 2011


Drained of all emotion.
Hurt by someone who I never would have thought could hurt me.
Hurt by someone else who I allowed to hurt me.
Hurt by my past, and frightened of my future.
And hurt by the loss of hope in the possibility of that happiness.

This is the tired me, the one who has tried and tried and tried. Wanting to give up but knowing I could never give up.

Monday, 4 July 2011

I know it's not gonna be easy,

True love.

I don't dare to say that I know much about love. I am far from an expert on this topic, and who can blame me, I'm only a little girl in the world. I used to be a silly one, too. But slowly, I am learning the meaning of true love. I have learnt in the past year that love is so much more than sweet words from the lips of someone which give you butterflies in your stomach.

While I know that love makes us willing to sacrifice of ourselves for another person, have you ever had to give up on your own happiness for the good of the other person? What I mean to say is, have you ever been faced with a situation where the person has had to choose between his/her lifelong dream, or you?

I love many. I love easily. Just like how I laugh with all my being when I hear something funny, I also love with my entire being. If I love you, I am willing to let go of my happiness if that means that you are happy. I would want you to know that though I love you so very much, and there is nothing more that I want than to be able to be with you, there is actually something more that I want. And that is seeing you happy.

So if ever someone is uncertain whether to leave me behind to pursue their dreams, I would tell them "Please, believe me, just go." For the happiness that is awaiting you is so worth the sacrifice of not being able to be with you.

And once I realized this about myself, I think I can safely say that I do know what true love is now. I wish you only the best.