Me and fishes.

I'm really really proud of myself today!! I came back to Seremban to see grandma and my aunt and cousins, and I helped my aunt cook dinner! And most of all, I learned how to take the scales off a fish, and how to clean out everything disgusting from inside the fish, to make it reallyyy tasty afterwards. Yay!! I wasn't even disgusted when I used my fingers to dig into the fish and clean out all the intestiney things. Hahaha..it felt good! 

I've always found cooking to be a beautiful art. It's so amazing how happy you can make someone by cooking them something! I just never had the chance to really learn how to do it. But I plan to! It was so embarassing to admit to the children and the home in Bali that I don't know how to cook. Not that well anyway. And there they were helping out with the cooking and being so proffesional, making me look bad..LOL! I shall prove that this girl is not only an engineer, but an engineer who can cook!! Hah! :)

Time for bed, huahmmm....Goodnight! 

Count on me..

You can count on me, like one, two, three... - Bruno Mars, Count on Me



I want to be a part of your life, for always...
To be the person you talk to about nothing and everything...
who you don't have to keep secrets from.

I love it when you ask me for my opinion in things which do not concern me.

I want to know anything that means something to you.

And so I will support and encourage you,
I will try my best to give you strength even when I am weak myself.

Even if your aims, goals, and plans in life mean that you will have to go to a place far away,

even if they take this precious friend of mine away,

I have you in my heart,
and you will always have my support no matter what.

And most of all, when I cannot see you,
or feel you,
I will pray for you..
like I always have..because I am powerless at that moment,
powerless to help you in any way,
but as you know and I know, our God is faithful..

and He will take care of the both of us,
one here, and one there.

"Feeling rich"

To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.  - Ralph Waldo Emerson

 

 Today I attended a seminar in a 5-star hotel..I arrived there quite early on my own, so I had some sandwiches and a cup of coffee. My dad has a phrase which he uses quite often with my little brother - "feeling rich". Ryan often says things like "Let's go have dinner at an expensive restaurant!" or "Why aren't we staying in a 5-star hotel?" or something to that effect. And my dad always reacts in the same way - "Wah you really 'feeling rich' ah!" Its not that we are desperately poor, but we lead really simple lives, and we were never brought up to take 5-star hotels for granted. 

So while I was sitting there having my cup of coffee, I thought to myself.."I'm really 'feeling rich'!" I mean, I could just sit there in my professional-looking outfit and the world wouldn't think I looked out of place in that hotel! While my life is actually farrrr from that sort of atmosphere. This is one of the reasons why I love my job(not the only reason of course!) - I get a glimpse of another world which most people want to be a part of and appreciate it, but at the same time I don't envy that sort of life, because I love my own. 

I also thought of my babies in Bali, and how nice if I could bring them to a 5-star hotel to stay for a night :)

So what?

"So what if it hurts me? So what if I break down?
So what if the world just throws me off the edge and my feet run out of ground?
I've got to find my place, I want to hear my sound. Don't care about all the pain in front of me -
I just want to be happy. "

Leona Lewis, Happy.

The beginning of something wonderful..

Just wanted to share something which I found really nice..

Beginnings are never easy
So much is still unknown
So many desires seeking fulfillment
Collide with the patient trust that
Everything is as it should be
Love does not rush
No masterpiece ever does
You do not plant the seed of a rose in the morning
And ask it to blossom by the afternoon
Lust is the first one in
And the first one out
But love…
Love is cool, calm and collected
It plays tricks on you to keep you honest
Love is a patient comedian
Who helps you to get over the fearful ego
So you have the fearlessness to BE with yourself and another
I do not ask for easy beginnings
Because I know that the One meant for me will stick
With no effort on my behalf
There is no striving for love
There is no convincing love to stay
There is just you
Your fearlessness
And trust
Love will do the rest

by Mastin Kipp on thedailylove.com

Romance.

I'm not looking for romance.

I don't need sweet smelling roses,
Or glittering gifts.
I don't need public display of affection,
Or for the world to know of our attraction.
I don't need a big house,
I just want a loving home.

I won't push our children to be perfect,

Because they already will be.

I don't need you to always be by my side,

Because the certainty in my heart that we will always be together is enough.

Because the world disappears when we're together. You and I. Is enough. 

-to whoever you are out there, I just haven't met you yet.

My place in this world..

Finally I got to Bali again last week, and it was so hard to leave. 

I have come to love the people there so very much. 

I always loved riding past the rice fields, probably my favourite view in the whole world. They only just planted them in for a new cycle when I was last there..and now they're all almost ready for harvest. It seems so silly, but it felt like I was saying hello again to the rice fields..and that they recognised me, and they were welcoming me back there again.

Why?

Sometimes you can't help but wonder - why do such people exist in our world?

How can there be so much hatred and evil in their hearts and minds?

I cannot understand this..

Just 5 more days and I'll be going to see my lovely children in Bali again! I really really can't wait to see them.
I went shopping for dresses and clothes for the little ones and it was so exciting to choose the prettiest dresses and guess how much they're grown in the past 6 months since I last saw them!

But before then, its back to work tomorrow! And it has been crazy hot the past week here in Malaysia.

All I Want..

This song, says what I've wanted to say better than I could have said it.